Real Stories - April 2017

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I began to feel sorry for myself. I threw myself a pity party and I played the victim. I kept thinking about all the nice men that I could have married but here I went and gave my heart to the county pervert. My husband handed me a book and some printed material off the Internet after he made his confession to me. The material was tame in comparison to what I now know about this lifestyle but at that time it might as well have been the hardest core porno. I read one chapter in the book and maybe half of the material off the Internet before I threw them in the trash. I kicked my husband out of our bedroom and I cried myself to sleep that night.

I stayed mad at him for weeks and he did his best to apologize. He brought me flowers and lovely cards each day. I finally got over it and we made up but I didn't quite view him the same. I still loved him but I didn't respect him as much. I know it was horrible to be so close-minded but I was very immature and I hurt very easy. I have always held grudges when I didn't get my way and I was now holding a grudge against my husband.