Real Stories - April 2017

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This lasted for the next couple of years. I will admit that we had some fun and that our sex life improved 100%. I bought some leather outfits and a paddle that was leather on one side and soft fleece on the other. The first time I saw myself in leather, I could not get over how sexy and powerful I looked. I really enjoyed our special times in the bedroom. The problem was life outside of the bedroom. My husband was becoming less assertive and I was becoming more assertive. This led to arguments and tension in our relationship. I was use to him making decisions but now I was becoming impatient with him. I didn't know what to do.

I was also struggling with guilt about what we did in the bedroom. I was a prude and I was afraid that others would find out what we were doing. We were regular church goers and I felt guilty about going to church on Sunday mornings and Wednesday nights but wearing leather and spanking my husband on Monday and Friday nights. I began to see myself as a pervert with deviant behavior. I knew I had to talk with someone about this besides my husband but I was afraid to let another person know about our secret.