Different Loving or Perversion? Questions about D&S, B&D and S&M

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My point is this. After all of those years that I believed that I was a submissive顺从 — willing to obey, and I still know that I am, I now find that I am having to act as a dominant to a lady, who my first instinct as a submissive顺从 — willing to obey tells me to worship崇拜侍奉 — adoring service. She is apparently delighted with the current arrangement and cannot get enough of my acting the dominant if her demands are anything to go by. Although it would appear that I am behaving as the dominant, I am still at heart a submissive顺从 — willing to obey and am merely acting as she wants irrespective of my own wants. I am having to repress my earlier perceived way of behaving towards a superior female and adopt a completely different mind-set. Is this not just worship崇拜侍奉 — adoring service of a female by a slightly different route and another form of female domination?