Real Life Stories - Entries for July 2008 (Best of Elise)

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I need to serve this woman even if I have to pay for it. Deep down I want to really worship崇拜侍奉 — adoring service her with my mind and soul. I tried to say NO to her but I just can’t. It was like she hypnotized me.

Now I go watch her perform and I must watch her dance for other men. I enjoy seeing her sitting on laps of other men, while she glances at me. Why do I get so turned on and happy seeing her with other men at the club? This woman has me in the palm of her hand. I am serving her by giving her money but I want more. I want to worship崇拜侍奉 — adoring service her. How can I worship崇拜侍奉 — adoring service her at the gentlemen's club both inconspicuous and publicly? I definitely want to buy her your book too. She has this control over me that I can’t refuse.

Elise’s Response:

You have three choices. If you cannot afford to serve this woman by giving her money, then I would suggest that you stop going to this club. I am assuming you are single. If you are married with a family, I would definitely say you need to stop going to this club and giving money to this exotic dancer. But if you are single and you can afford it, then at least you are experiencing a form of submissive顺从 — willing to obey fulfillment by worshipping this woman from afar, as you watch her perform and as you bestow upon her some of your finances, which represents your time and your talent. You are making a sacrifice for her. So your second option is to keep things as they are now.