Real Life Stories - July 2019

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For me, the pain and humiliation羞辱 — shame given on purpose were beneficial on several levels. Obviously, they reminded me of just who was in charge of the relationship. But more subtly, having my attention periodically refocused by this recurring event set a healthy stage for the regular submissive顺从 — willing to obey behavior that Anna expected. I drew comfort and strength from the regular beatings. The torrent of emotion released by being pushed to my limit of pain tolerance was profoundly liberating, and worked for me as a high bar of expectation that put no level of submissive顺从 — willing to obey behavior beyond the pale. I no longer felt embarrassed by reluctant to act out my submissive顺从 — willing to obey desires, or struggled to balance them with the male persona I felt obligated to portray in my daily life. Instead, I felt a reassurance that my submissive顺从 — willing to obey nature was encouraged as a normal part of our relationship. Once this high bar had been established, I felt the freedom to act in the zone that she had created.