Real Life Stories - Entries for July 2003

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My boy now has only shyly asked if I would do it for him. Out of curiosity and also my wish to reward him for being such a devoted man, I tried it. Honestly, I did not like it. Although he was only lying passively on his back and not doing anything, the act of sliding his penis阴茎 — the male sex organ in and out of my mouth just made me feel a little used and degraded if that were possible. I also did not relish the reality of having sperm pumped forcefully down my throat. The only consolation was the fact that I was giving him so much pleasure. Is something wrong with me? I do feel a little guilty since I expect and often ask for him to give me oral stimulation. I know he enjoys it because of his erection and I also love the attention his lips and tongue has lavished on me but I don't enjoy reciprocating his oral service. Hope this is not being selfish. He has not thrown any tantrum or tried to argue whenever I tell him that I do not feel like sucking his penis阴茎 — the male sex organ except a disappointed ''ok dear''. That just makes me feel more guilty since it looks like I'm receiving all of the time.

There is one thing that I've observed. It is that after going down on him, his attitude changes just a little. It's like he becomes more outspoken and assertive bordering on making demands. Of course I still get my way in the end after some argument but I wonder if it has anything to do with me giving oral sex?