Real Life Stories - September 2004

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Disappointed and yet high I went back from this dreamland and I masturbated when I got home and many times the rest of that weekend, as I dwelled on what had happened. Now I submit to her at work and once a week at her apartment when I do domestic duties for her.

I am scared to tie my work with this. I am a hard worker and had ambitions. Now my submissive顺从 — willing to obey desires and ambitious nature is in conflict. She is superior to me and I want her to succeed but I also don’t want to lose all of my personal ambitions. I can devote my life in the worship崇拜侍奉 — adoring service of this Goddess女神 — a woman treated as divine or leave in search for some false sense of pride... not sure but I am confused. Her presence is powerful. It leaves me begging inside. I felt like cleaning her toilet bowl with my tongue the other day, but I resisted due to hygiene concerns.

So here I stand on the crossroads and I don't know which way to go… or if I still even have a choice!

Elise’s Response:

Jason, of course you have a choice but I see no reason why you can’t do both. You can submit to this woman at work (and you better submit to her since she is your immediate boss), you can be her domestic submissive顺从 — willing to obey once a week, and you can still have your own personal goals and ambitions.