A submissive顺从 — willing to obey husband's Journal

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Last night Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner told me to put the eye-bolts back on the bottom of my bed. Today I did that. It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out there is going to be some kind of restraint/bondage捆绑 — being tied or restrained involved in that, but other than that I have no clue what to expect. Has Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner got me “off balance, confused, just a bit fearful?” Yes She does, and the submissive顺从 — willing to obey in me loves her deeply for that.

Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner came home and we followed our new convention. I was dressed appropriately this time, naked except for a short black, silky robe, open to expose my nakedness. I served Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner her supper. Later I sat on the floor while she enjoyed a small cigar. She had me slip some reptile print stilettos细高跟 — a very thin high heel on her feet. I sat on the floor and gazed at her in her stilettos细高跟 — a very thin high heel and executive clothes from work, smoking her cigar. It was extremely erotic. Later Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner had me work on her feet.

Tonight she told me that I was not allowed to touch myself in a sexual way: playing with my nipples乳头 — the tip of the breast (I LIKE that) or using the various plugs and dildoes假阳具 — a toy shaped like a penis on my ass臀部 — the buttocks (also not bad). Of course I said that I would follow Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner’s guidance in this manner. I have to trust that at some point she will see to my sexual needs, although it could be in a most unusual, painful or humiliating manner (I HOPE!).

I enjoyed my relatively freer ‘spouse time’ from 7 – 9 (when I wrote part of this entry). Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner asked me tonight if I liked my role. I told her, MOST TRUTHFULLY, that I do. I really do. This is who I am.