A submissive顺从 — willing to obey husband's Journal

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19 November 2005 (Sat.): We slept in. We had a luncheon date at 1:00 with M’Lady, a lifestyle BDSM enthusiast, who is also an author and a musician. So we have a lot in common. I met her through the local BDSM Yahoo group. Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner and I made the one hour drive and met her for lunch. We talked about what we wanted from the relationship and some of our experience. She and Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner seemed to get on well. M’Lady has that same knack that Miss Erica displayed: that of turning my words around and pointing out my mistakes. I said that “when I have to accompany her” and was corrected and told that I should be saying “when I have the privilege to accompany Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner.” Dumb! Stupid! I have 4 college degrees, have written a book, I KNOW how to use words. So WHY do I fuck up? Of course M’Lady was right. That’s why I need more training. These things aren’t coming natural to me. I haven’t given myself, all of me, completely over to serving Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner. No matter how much I profess to want to be submissive顺从 — willing to obey I keep seem to be making dumb mistakes. After lunch M’Lady took us back to her house and showed us around. Some of the things; enemas, ball vises, sounds, penis阴茎 — the male sex organ pumps高跟鞋 — closed women's shoes with a raised heel, not to mention the various whips, etc., convinced me that M’Lady is the real deal. Afterwards Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner and I discussed our visit at some length. I believe that Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner is going to get together with M’Lady to see about furthering my training. I really want this. I thanked Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner several times that day and evening for her support in all of this. Yes, I know how lucky I am. That’s why I want to give all of myself to Her.