A submissive顺从 — willing to obey husband's Journal

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I don’t know what to think. I haven’t even replied to her yet. Of course this is what I want, or I think that I have wanted. Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner has been reading the Marketplace/Academy series of erotic D/s literature. Has this given her insight into what I want? There I go again: THINKING TOO MUCH!! Of course I will do this. It’s what I want, to submit, to serve, to be owned, and yet, to still be cherished, valued and loved. I’m scared. I’m excited. I’m in love. I’m also an emotional wreck (some tears shed; the emotions right now are simply fucking overwhelming). My submission to Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner, something I want and need so desperately, will only be good if it is good for Her also. If She is nervous or uncomfortable in all of this then my submission means nothing, because Her pleasure and happiness means ALL to me. Will this all work out? I hope so. My God, she has literally rocked my world!!

Stupid me! I responded to Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner with a simple “Yes, Ma’am, I understand” and received the following e-mail (below). She is obviously better at being Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner than I am at being her slave奴隶 — a person kept in total obedience. She is giving me the wonderful gift of submission to her and I didn’t even thank her; stupid, stupid, stupid!

You have already earned six swats due to being unthankful for my generosity. Please begin a sheet for punishment. A sheet that shows what you have earned and then where I have chosen to render same and how.