A submissive顺从 — willing to obey husband's Journal

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At bedtime Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner had me lay across her bed for a spanking. She used a variety of the many whips we have recently collected. She finished up with 12 from the new Drei Teufelen (a 3-shafted cane named the Three Devils). The beating hurt, but Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner complimented me on the way I took it. I am trying hard for her. Afterwards Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner allowed me to go down between her legs and had me kiss and lick her sex until she came. When she was satisfied we cuddled for a while, then she sent me to bed.

Before bed I finally masturbated and came, after 48 days of chastity禁欲 — being kept from orgasm. Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner’s domination is a strong aphrodisiac for me. Can that be the key? Am I becoming so linked to Her pleasure and domination that I need that to initiate and enjoy my own sexual release? If that is true then I am good with that. Serving for her, doing for her, submitting to her gives me the greatest rewards and fulfillment that I can imagine. I was incomplete before this relationship dynamic entered our lives.

03 January 2005 (Mon.): I rose before Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner and crawled to her room to begin our usual morning rituals. My ass臀部 — the buttocks was sore in a couple of places from last night’s beating, but it was a good pain; a hurt given as a gift from Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner, a constant reminder of my place. I liked the pain and the circumstances that delivered it. I did my usual morning domestic service, waiting on Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner and seeing to her needs.