A submissive顺从 — willing to obey husband's Journal

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25 January 2005 (Tue.): As usual I crawled to Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner’s room and worshipped her feet until she arose. As she sat on the edge of the bed she pulled me to her and hugged and kissed me. Then she slapped me. She told me that I wouldn’t be her toilet paper this morning.

“Do you know why?” she asked.

“Because that is your choice” I replied.

“Exactly” she said. I was allowed to kiss and lick her ass臀部 — the buttocks then she went to her bathroom telling me to “make the bed.”

I made her bed, then went and added an apron围裙 — a cover worn over clothes while working and heels to my nightgown and spent the rest of the morning in my routine service to Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner.

Before Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner left for work, she put me across her bed and attacked my ass臀部 — the buttocks with her new oak paddle. It is a devilish instrument. I took six blows and to my discredit did not take them well. I writhed and jumped and Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner had to give me a few moments relief before she finished the session. She ALWAYS finishes a session. I can’t remember when she has ever stopped short of whatever number (usually a multiple of 6) that she has decreed I will receive. She may give me a rest or talk me through the last few but she always makes sure that we finish. I love Her for that because I know that (for now) it is probably still hard for her to inflict that pain. I truly wish that I could take the beatings better, be more stoic. Maybe I need to learn to accept and lose myself in the endeavor, give myself over to the pain and embrace it. I don’t know. Maybe Miss Erica can help us with this.