A submissive顺从 — willing to obey husband's Journal

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I saw to Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner’s needs throughout the evening. We watched TV then went to bed. I was submissive顺从 — willing to obey, as always, but was not dominated.

20 January 2005 (Thur.): Before crawling into Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner’s bedroom at 5:30 this morning I lubed up my ass臀部 — the buttocks and inserted my large pink but plug. I spent the next 30 minutes on my knees, at the foot of Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner’s bed, clad in my short, white, lace nightie, chastity禁欲 — being kept from orgasm device and impaled on a butt plug肛塞 — a toy worn in the anus. I rubbed, kissed and licked her feet and sucked her toes. All the while I wondered when, and if, I would ever see any overt, aggressive domination. I know that I need to stop obsessing on this but I can’t. It’s my age-old complaint that I am being allowed to be submissive顺从 — willing to obey and obedient but I am not being dominated or controlled. I will keep trying to be submissive顺从 — willing to obey, do my part and serve her and hope that she eventually “comes around” and can give me what I need.

But I saw to all of Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner’s needs this morning, as usual, although I was very quiet. I did not initiate any conversation, only replying with a quiet and demure “yes Ma’am” when required.

After Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner left I removed the butt plug肛塞 — a toy worn in the anus and did 120 ab crunches and 110 pushups. Then I ate a bowl of oatmeal. I spent the morning and early afternoon engaged in little projects of various types.