A submissive顺从 — willing to obey husband's Journal

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During this process I felt humiliated and I felt as if I was losing more control to her. I could feel my soul surrendering to her and I was surrendering more of my body to her. I remember this passive feeling coming over me where I felt almost like a helpless child. I looked in her eyes and I remember asking her to take me deeper into submission. She smiled and said “I will”.

The emotions that came over me caught me off guard. I began to weep. I felt like I was emotionally broken. I couldn’t hold back the tears and I realized how much I love this woman. I felt so close to her and I could feel her maternal love, but she had a mischievous look on her face. It was definitely a look of a loving Sadist.

Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner then made me beg her for relief from the enema. I begged, I pleaded and I promised to build her the bathroom and to be obedient when she went out with Ryan. My mind began to shift away from her and back on the painful bloating and cramping in my stomach. I could feel some water dripping from me into the diaper but I was squeezing hard to hold it in. The plug and the diaper made it almost certain that I would not have a major mishap but it was uncomfortable nonetheless.