A submissive顺从 — willing to obey husband's Journal

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I feel drained. I feel relaxed. I feel broken. I feel loved. Rarely do I weep. Tonight I wept. My love for my wife has never been stronger, yet I am in awe at her sadism. I feel safe in her hands but I marvel at how far she is willing to push the limits of our play. Never have I felt as vulnerable to another person as I felt this night to my Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner. No experience has been as emotional as this one. I feel like a child, I feel as if I revisited my boyhood tonight. I don’t believe I ever bonded with my mother as deeply as I bonded with my wife this night.

II feel like I was violated and redeemed at the same time. I did not enjoy the enema but I did enjoy the interactions with my Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner. I hope this will not be a regular occurrence but I realize once I build the bathroom she will probably want to do more enemas. All I can say is, "Please have pity upon me Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner!" I would rather endure 100 lashes on the wall of discipline. The enema domination was almost more than I could bear.

The first filling was bearable and I liked how that felt. The second filling was intense and a heaven/hell experience. My mind kept going back and forth between the nurturing I felt as I was sucking on Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner’ breasts乳房 — a woman's chest and licking her pussy阴部 — the vulva, and the bloating I felt in my gut. It was like having bad gas pains where the pain comes and goes.