Real Stories - May 2005

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Crossdressing is a lifelong activity that I enjoy to this day. I have no female persona, nor a desire to be passable; instead, I simply enjoy the sensuality of feminine attire, and the thrill that the sense of naughtiness at having stretched a cultural boundary provides. I limit my crossdressing to lingerie情趣内衣 — women's fancy underwear, shoes, and risque clubwear-type attire, and consider it a relaxing, self-expressive activity that privately frees me from the societal expectations placed on males. Crossdressing is at once both triumphant and submissive顺从 — willing to obey. At once I feel the power to assert my own interpretation of gender roles, and the restrictive vulnerabilities that feminine attire provides.

Anna knew of my crossdressing before our relationship solidified but only begrudgingly approved of it. While she viewed my sexual appetite as healthy, and did not overtly doubt my masculinity, she seemed to view crossdressing among straight males as a desire to cheat without cheating - in effect, to be the other woman in the relationship. Since this viewpoint was so anathema to how I felt, I chose to stand my ground. I knew my feelings to be true, and was reluctant to forego the simple pleasures of crossdressing, so I crafted an evening event that I hoped would change her mind.