Real Stories - July 2005

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During that time Marlena used to say, "I'm not going to fall in love with you, because eventually you're going to leave me for a man." Which eventually came true. After about two years, I met a man in a gay club, and left Marlena to move in with him. I lived with him for 6 years, and then we broke up and I met a black man that I lived with for 5 years. Over those years I started taking female hormones and living more fully as a woman.

Unable to get work while I was in transition, I took the lessons I'd learned from Marlena and prostituted myself, to the tune of $300 an hour to various men.

Did I become the way I am today because of Marlena, or was it inside of me all the time? Am I a true transsexual or am I the product of a Dominant woman? I'm not 100% sure.

Over time I got sick of men. Sick of them wanting me only for their sexual gratification. About a year ago I met another Dominant woman, this one not a pro, but like Marlena, older than me, in her early 50's. She is not as sadistic as Marlena was sometimes, and treats me in a loving, but firm manner. She uses a paddle on me, and a strap-on穿戴式假阳具 — a toy penis worn in a harness, which I have come to love more than a man's penis阴茎 — the male sex organ. For one thing, my girlfriend Heather's strap-on穿戴式假阳具 — a toy penis worn in a harness never cums prematurely, it never tires, and it comes in various sizes.