Q&A Forum - August 2017 (The best of Elise)
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It is obvious that you are still evolving in your sexuality. You recognized your submissive顺从 — willing to obey nature and you were drawn to the world of D&S, but you sought out D&S experiences with men because you equated your submissive顺从 — willing to obey nature as being a rejection of traditional male masculinity, and thus you assumed you were gay. Perhaps you are but I find it interesting that you gravitated toward gay D&S experiences. Could it be that what excited you about these encounters was not so much the gay experience but rather the D&S experience?
You enjoy being dominated, regardless who was doing the dominating, because it satisfies your submissive顺从 — willing to obey nature. Your submissive顺从 — willing to obey fulfillment from these gay D&S sessions caused you to believe that you were indeed homosexual, when in fact all they have really substantiated is the fact that you are submissive顺从 — willing to obey. Now you are conflicted because you find yourself experiencing these internal stirrings when you ponder the Dominatrix女支配者 — a dominant woman. There is something about the dominant female that arouses you, if not in a sexual way, than certainly in an intellectual, emotional or spiritual way.