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E.S.P., psychic phenomenon and such. When we started playing with S/M, I began experiencing feelings and psychic sensations that I've never felt in this circumstance before. I would turn to my partner and ask if he felt something different and what it was. From these experiences, we concluded that S/M could be telepathic, mutual and connected to the opening of some channels of energy in ourselves that are hard to open and don't get opened very often.

I think the channel for the Dominant is in finding feelings of wickedness, of wanting to hurt, of using power and pushing out that yang end of the spectrum to where she is really exercising power, far beyond what the average woman gets to do in everyday life. The channel to that part of ourselves is usually blocked off because girls are told it is not nice to be wicked, selfish, cruel. "Don't be a bad girl", everyone says. Boys, on the other hand, are warned again st "being a doormat for some woman", against being wimpy, or soft or gentle. "Don't let yourself be used, exploited," they're told.

We close off entire parts of ourselves as a early conditioning. When we open the door that leads to these repressed feelings, we get that "rush" I've been talking about.