Real Life Stories - June 2010

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At 22 I gave birth to twin boys, and as if that wasn't hard enough one of the boys, at 7 weeks old, fell ill with encephalitis (similar to meningitis). He is now profoundly handicapped, physically and intellectually. He needs 24/7全天 — all day and every day care. To say part of us died then would not be an understatement. Even nearly 17 years on, the pain is as fresh as it was when it happened. For many, many years I somehow "blamed" myself for his illness and felt that having a handicapped child was all I deserved. I was in a very unhappy place for far too long. Of course, I know now the truth, and hopeless as that truth definitely is, our son falling ill was just pure bad luck. I did nothing wrong, nor did William. We love and adore all three of them equally, and do our very best for them.

The reason I have told you this is to explain where I am coming from and how Femdom女性支配 — female domination has helped me grow and crush some of my demons. It has made me feel stronger and my self-esteem and confidence, which previously were in the gutter, have blossomed and bloomed. I no longer look in the mirror and hate myself. That is enormous progress!! Of course, this did not happen overnight and without me working at it! You have to make being Dominant work for you. Women, I believe, can all get in touch with their natural Dominant side but, in order to make it grow, it has to be nurtured and worked at. It is not a "cure all" remedy.