Real Stories - May 2020

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I stayed mad at him for weeks and he did his best to apologize. He brought me flowers and lovely cards each day. I finally got over it and we made up but I didn't quite view him the same. I still loved him but I didn't respect him as much. I know it was horrible to be so close-minded but I was very immature and I hurt very easy. I have always held grudges when I didn't get my way and I was now holding a grudge against my husband.

Even though we made up, I was holding resentment in my heart toward him. It was eating me up inside so I decided that we needed to have another open talk. This time I asked him to explain to me why he wanted to be dominated by a woman. I was thinking that perhaps he needed to go get counseling about this. He told me about how he had these desires since he was a child and how he use to buy female domination magazines and rent videos when he was a teenager and young adult. It was his dirty little secret and he never told a soul. Before he met me, he had seen a Dominatrix女支配者 — a dominant woman one time. He also confessed to me that he frequented some FemDom女性支配 — female domination sites on the Internet when this urge came upon him. He felt guilty about it but he couldn't control himself.