A submissive顺从 — willing to obey husband's Journal

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I prepared the sheet as required, e-mailed her that I had fulfilled her requirements and thanked her for pointing out my error and giving me the opportunity to improve myself. I’m guessing that these 6 swats are not going to be love taps. I don’t feel that she is playing around here.

OK, so I got my shit together, as much as I could under the circumstances. I performed the daily wipe-down of Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner’s bathroom and cleaned all the toilets (although I will do it again on Friday) and straightened up the house. I went down to the basement exercise area and got in a really good dumbbell workout. Has Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner’s Dominance fired me up? I’d say that would be a very good guess. I feel infused with a new spirit, an increased devotion, a new energy to push myself to do more for Her, give more of myself for Her. It’s not like I didn’t love her before. Of course I did. But today She reached deep inside me and grabbed something very dear to me which has put me into a shark-like feeding frenzy of love and devotion. Shit! I don’t know how to explain it, to put it into words. I can only hope that She wants this as much as I do. If it’s good for her also then it is a HUGE WIN-WIN. But if She is just doing it for me then we are both losers for my submissive顺从 — willing to obey joy comes from Her contentment and pleasure. I guess I’m thinking too much again. What was it M’Lady said about the emotions “squishing out the sides?” God, I hope I don’t break down tonight.