A submissive顺从 — willing to obey husband's Journal

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Regrets? No, I am very happy, but at times there is a kind of feeling of loss. It is the sense of one that at times looks fondly back on a former relationship or a special event in their life. The loss I sometimes feel is more of a tribute to wonderful memories of a past love. I would equate it to a man who is divorced and remarried. He can be very happy with his new life and his new love but still have fond memories of the life he had with his former love.

Even though I am still married to the same woman, our relationship has changed and it is as if we are in a brand new relationship. Our roles and the way we relate to each other are totally different. When we first got married my wife looked to me to make most of the decisions. Now I look to her. But if given the chance, I would never trade my current marriage for my former marriage. That does not mean that there are not characteristics of my former marriage that I do not miss at times but they fail to compare to what I have gained in this new relationship with my wife. I know her on an entirely different level and in an entirely different way, and it is so deep and so very special. I never knew what loving a woman was about until she dominated me and took our marriage into this new direction. To have what we have now, although not always easy for me to embrace, I could not fathom giving it up to go back to how we were before. That was nice but this is much better.