A submissive顺从 — willing to obey husband's Journal

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I spent the day doing a lot of running around for family reasons and for my business. Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner brought home some take out chicken which was nice. Afterwards I changed into a bra, silky nightgown, shoulder-length earrings and stiletto细高跟 — a very thin high heel thongs丁字裤 — underwear with a thin strip in the back. I knelt before Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner and worked on her feet. When it was time for bed I turned down Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner’s bed (always one of my nightly duties) and assisted her with undressing and brought her a nightgown. I desperately wanted to stay and pleasure her, or at least as much as I can while in chastity禁欲 — being kept from orgasm. But mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner simply kissed me, then slapped my bottom and told me to “get out.” When I didn’t move fast enough she said “faster!” Obviously she is reaching the point where she knows what she wants and she is not being too reticent about expecting to get it. For my part I am glad. The more demanding spoiled and selfish she is, the more I fall under her spell of supreme feminine power and authority. Why am I so willing and desirous to give up what I have, my freedom of action and thought? Why do I feel so complete and fulfilled when she takes these things from me? Is there an “end” to all of this? Is there some point at which I have nothing left to give, when she has consumed “all” of me (whatever that may be)? Would I then be of no use to her, or would I have “self actualized” to put it in Maslowian terms? Maybe that’s what this is all about. Maybe the Superior Female guides the male to that blissful nirvana of submissive顺从 — willing to obey self-actualization. Hmmmm…Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner and Miss Erica would say that right now I am “thinking” too much. I just need to let it go. I’m a submissive顺从 — willing to obey, little slut in love with a beautiful, powerful, dominant woman. Shouldn’t that be enough? It’s time for bed. Mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner wants to be woken at 6:30 tomorrow which means I must begin tomorrow’s foot adoration no later than 6:00. Ahhhh….little, anal肛门的 — to do with the anus-retentive submissive顺从 — willing to obey sluts like me love those kinds of deadlines and precise taskings (sighs and nipple乳头 — the tip of the breast pinching).