Real Life Stories - Page 4

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It would be a while before I found someone that I thought would be the Queen of my dreams, sent from heaven no less. What I would very painfully find out (emotionally and physically) was that she was more of a mistress女主人 — a woman who leads a submissive partner from hell, a caretaker of Cerberus, rather than an angel sent from above. We met when I was 26 and she was 29. She was into mild forms of domination, spanking, bondage捆绑 — being tied or restrained but she never really got into the lifestyle (or at least that is what she told me). She once said to me that when she had met me that I was the person that she was looking for, someone with whom she could trust with her dark desires and need to completely dominate someone. So as you can see, I thought that I had found my soul mate. Turns out that having is not such a pleasing a thing as wanting. I never once gave her instructions on how I wanted to be dominated, I figured that if she was to be truly comfortable with this it had to be on her own terms. I literally put my life in her hands. As she became more comfortable she pushed the depths of my submission further and further. It took a long time for me to finally snap out of my denial and it really started to sink in on how cold she was to me. It finally donned on me that she wasn't showing me love at all. No nurturing, no tenderness, nothing. She very rarely showed me any kind of affection. It was always; do this for me, clean this for me, take this punishment for me, pleasure me, make me cum. She's left permanent scars on my back, butt, and scrotum阴囊 — the sac that holds the testicles. I used to love giving oral sex to my girlfriends and now I have an almost complete distaste for it because of her numerous "marathon" sessions. Of course, I was never allowed to cumin her presence and was only allowed to masturbate when she allowed me to. I slowly began to loathe my own orgasm高潮 — the sexual climax, as I felt no pleasure in it at all. One of many emotional scars that I fear I will never get over. She said 'I love you' many times and it took me a long time for me to realize how hollow it really was.