Real Life Stories - April 2020

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At least on such occasions she graciously seems to accept my renewed ardent promises to try even harder to serve her better in other ways in compensation. She has shown her dominance and promised to take advantage of my sense of inadequacy and inferiority. Only my masochism allows me not to get depressed by the frustration of wanting to please my wife, being kept waiting by her, then only to fail and find no relief, even for myself. I believe my wife is actually using my impotence to manipulate me to her advantage. Perhaps this is why she has always implied I should just accept my lot in life and that I am making a mountain out of a molehill by seeking medical treatment for my impotence. The idea of any sort of medical consultation together is something she has firmly rejected; it is my problem as an inferior male and that is the end of it. It is not worth spending money on treatment for something so trivial in her eyes, 'think of all the real illnesses other people have to put up with.'

She seems to let me try to make love to her just often enough to give me hope that she still thinks I might be able to please her physically, but also just intermittently enough to ensure I am given enough reminders not to forget how sexually inadequate I am. Thus, in what direction I should be focusing my efforts in compensation to please her? That is in practical ways as her house slave奴隶 — a person kept in total obedience.